May. 10, 2012 . 10:09 pm
i realize that if my roommate being noisy is my biggest problem, i'm living a pretty good life.
each of my quarters here has had such a distinctly different feel. my first quarter was all brightness and newness, i loved everyone and everything because of that newness of my life. by the time christmas passed and my second quarter started, i'd become sluggish. as the weather turned cold and i stopped riding my bike, i stopped exercising, everything was so much less shiny already. however, for that quarter i had fewer and easier classes, more free time, and my friendship slowly became less superficial. i spent less time in my room and more time at other's houses and in restaurants and out and about. which was cool, but i gained weight and spent a lot of money. so after spring break, as social as i've ever gotten and ultimately not much of a break for me, my third quarter had to feel different. you develop this idea of people that's ideal, and as you begin to know them better, that idea is almost always wrong, as far as i can tell. i go through a period with every friend i have where i absolutely cannot stand them. something about them irritates me to no end, and i can't even physically be around them.
so i think that happened with a lot of people this quarter. nancy and cesar, the two i spent my spring break with, have not reached that point, but our schedules don't align quite as well and we've spent virtually no time with each other this quarter. i'm sad, but i know i'll be living with cesar next year so it's not like i'll lose him as a friend forever because of this little bit of distance.
i'm quite busy this quarter. i have four classes, two days a week, all in a row. plus a gym class on mondays and wednesdays. the massive amount of reading i have keeps me from being very social. plus i didn't want to eat out much this quarter to save money (i'm so busy with school i can't work much) and to stop me from gaining more weight. plus i want to make time to work out, which has been working out well for the most part. although i don't know how i got so far into the quarter with so few workouts. maybe soon it will start paying off. i'm lifting a lot more than i was, and trying to run in between. when erin moves up at the beginning of next month i'm hoping we'll do our own two-person boot camp and work out five days a week. that would be perfect... although with my stress levels i can't seem to stop craving food, any food, really. so that's an issue.
i just feel like i don't like that many people here anymore. my biggest problem at the moment is with kenny, which i can go into a lot of detail about, and want to, but unfortunately it's getting quite late (for me, anyways!) and i need to go to sleep! so perhaps tomorrow.
each of my quarters here has had such a distinctly different feel. my first quarter was all brightness and newness, i loved everyone and everything because of that newness of my life. by the time christmas passed and my second quarter started, i'd become sluggish. as the weather turned cold and i stopped riding my bike, i stopped exercising, everything was so much less shiny already. however, for that quarter i had fewer and easier classes, more free time, and my friendship slowly became less superficial. i spent less time in my room and more time at other's houses and in restaurants and out and about. which was cool, but i gained weight and spent a lot of money. so after spring break, as social as i've ever gotten and ultimately not much of a break for me, my third quarter had to feel different. you develop this idea of people that's ideal, and as you begin to know them better, that idea is almost always wrong, as far as i can tell. i go through a period with every friend i have where i absolutely cannot stand them. something about them irritates me to no end, and i can't even physically be around them.
so i think that happened with a lot of people this quarter. nancy and cesar, the two i spent my spring break with, have not reached that point, but our schedules don't align quite as well and we've spent virtually no time with each other this quarter. i'm sad, but i know i'll be living with cesar next year so it's not like i'll lose him as a friend forever because of this little bit of distance.
i'm quite busy this quarter. i have four classes, two days a week, all in a row. plus a gym class on mondays and wednesdays. the massive amount of reading i have keeps me from being very social. plus i didn't want to eat out much this quarter to save money (i'm so busy with school i can't work much) and to stop me from gaining more weight. plus i want to make time to work out, which has been working out well for the most part. although i don't know how i got so far into the quarter with so few workouts. maybe soon it will start paying off. i'm lifting a lot more than i was, and trying to run in between. when erin moves up at the beginning of next month i'm hoping we'll do our own two-person boot camp and work out five days a week. that would be perfect... although with my stress levels i can't seem to stop craving food, any food, really. so that's an issue.
i just feel like i don't like that many people here anymore. my biggest problem at the moment is with kenny, which i can go into a lot of detail about, and want to, but unfortunately it's getting quite late (for me, anyways!) and i need to go to sleep! so perhaps tomorrow.